I can't.

I'm not sure why I'm feeling so worthless today. Is it the holiday season that is bringing me down? I just feel lost and confused. Nobody to hold out a hand and help me up. Nobody to tell me "everything will be okay". I miss those words. I miss them more than anything. I miss him. He's never coming back. I should be over it. I shouldn't be thinking about it. He's gone. He's dead. He won't come back no matter how much I wish and need him right now. Tell me everything will be fine. I can't take it.