Things.

I find myself crying more often. I haven't cried this much since Brett died. I just feel awful. I feel abandoned. Like...I have nobody to turn to anymore to help me. I don't have that "grip" that I used to have. I feel like I'm losing. I feel terrible. I feel hurt. I feel scared. I'm so afraid of not being able to come out of this. I can't turn to anyone. I'm upset. I'm fearful. Most of all...I feel lost.