Sometimes I really just hate people.

Fuck Life.

Fuck it all. Fuck life. Fuck. I hate it. I don't give a shit anymore. I don't give a fucking damn of this world anymore. Fuck it all. I'm hurting. And I have nobody to turn to. My smile was taken away from me. My heart was taken away from me. I don't get those back. I won't. You left me. You left me all along. I'm hurting. And it sucks.

It's a gloomy night. I shouldn't even feel this way. I don't know. I guess I just shouldn't have high hopes anymore.

Hmmm.

Today I walked into school and was depressed. No, I wasn't depressed. I was just...confused. I don't know. It's how I woke up today. In a bad mood. I wanted answers. I wanted to be away from this town. I wanted to be with him that very moment. It sucks, you know? But at the same time. I'm happy. I have the rest of this year and then next year and then I can be with him WHENEVER I want. I want to. So once I can, I'm out of here.

I forgot to mention something exciting that DID happen last time I updated. So theres this band called Hawthorne Heights. You've probably heard of them. But, their lead singer, JT Woodruff, agreed to let me interview him when I saw him last Saturday. IT WAS AMAZING. He was so down to earth and nice. I'll post the video up when it's done being edited. :)

Sorry. :(

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I guess I've just been really busy with family, friends, school. I haven't really had the chance to update. But nothing exciting has really happened lately. I passed all of my exams with nothing lower than a C, thank god. I got a really good report card. Ian and I are doing great. :) I'm going to Florida this summer and Alabama. :) Nothing really. I'll update again when something exciting happens.

Ughhh.

Sometimes I feel like I try too hard.

Ooppss. =/

Haven't blogged in a few days. Sorry. I've been sick lately and I haven't had the chance to get on the computer. Two ear infections and a cold. Damn winter weather. Damn me for getting ear infections easily. Blaaaah. Anyways. Just wanted to update that in case I disappear again. I'll post again when I'm better! Merry Christmas to all! :)